Basket Case
Oct. 2nd, 2007 01:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
muck_a_luckI cannot believe how much residual stress I have.
I was already low on sleep last week. This weekend took absolutely every reserve of energy and emotional strength I had. Yesterday, I was so tired and traumatized, I felt all day like my throat was constricting - like I was strangling. Today, after a good night's sleep, that's mostly gone away. But today, the slightest confrontational thing has been making me snapy and emotional. And that's not a great situation in my line of work. I've got client issues, partially created by my absence yesterday. We've got hoopla in the office about the damned photocopier and frankly I don't want anyone to ever talk to me about that again. I've got a friend who I think is suicidal and no one will know to tell me when she kills herself, I'll just never hear from her again, and I feel like a horrible person because I am in no emotional state at this time to reach to her and offer her the friendship she deserves, and like I can do anything practical anyway because in RL we are so far apart.
I already made a decision last week about one person that I just could not associate with anymore and keep my sanity. But today, I feel like there's almost no one I can stand to be close to.
This doesn't feel hormonal. I think I'm just exhausted. And I had been hoping to take a sanity day tomorrow, but that's not possible because I don't get Columbus Day off and I don't have child care that day, and I don't have enough time to take both days.
I'm hoping all I need is another good night's sleep to get back on my feet.
This emo post brought to you by me!
UPDATE: Comments disabled because I realize this is total personal melodrama.
I was already low on sleep last week. This weekend took absolutely every reserve of energy and emotional strength I had. Yesterday, I was so tired and traumatized, I felt all day like my throat was constricting - like I was strangling. Today, after a good night's sleep, that's mostly gone away. But today, the slightest confrontational thing has been making me snapy and emotional. And that's not a great situation in my line of work. I've got client issues, partially created by my absence yesterday. We've got hoopla in the office about the damned photocopier and frankly I don't want anyone to ever talk to me about that again. I've got a friend who I think is suicidal and no one will know to tell me when she kills herself, I'll just never hear from her again, and I feel like a horrible person because I am in no emotional state at this time to reach to her and offer her the friendship she deserves, and like I can do anything practical anyway because in RL we are so far apart.
I already made a decision last week about one person that I just could not associate with anymore and keep my sanity. But today, I feel like there's almost no one I can stand to be close to.
This doesn't feel hormonal. I think I'm just exhausted. And I had been hoping to take a sanity day tomorrow, but that's not possible because I don't get Columbus Day off and I don't have child care that day, and I don't have enough time to take both days.
I'm hoping all I need is another good night's sleep to get back on my feet.
This emo post brought to you by me!
UPDATE: Comments disabled because I realize this is total personal melodrama.
